(feel my heat): Diminishing Returns

Cities - Talking Heads
Heart of Hearts - !!!
Don Gon Do It - The Rapture
Tribulations - LCD Soundsystem
Destroy Everything You Touch - Ladytron
Acceptable In the 80's - Calvin Harris*
Tonight I Have to Leave It - Shout Out Louds
Show Your Hand - Super Furry Animals
Fluorescent Adolescent - Arctic Monkeys
Two Sevens Clash - Culture*
Peace And Quiet - The Rifles
Generator - The Holloways
The Wildfire (If It Was True) - Mando Diao
Grumblin' Dub - The Upsetters*
Valerie - Mark Ronson featuring Amy Winehouse
Golden Years - David Bowie
Can't Get Used to Losing You - The English Beat
My Ever Changing Moods (12" Version) - The Style Council
Sneakin' Sally through the Alley - Robert Palmer
Telstar (LP Version) - The Challengers*
If You Want Me to Stay - Sly & The Family Stone
I Believe (When I Fall in Love It Will Be Forever) - Stevie Wonder
fa-fa-fa-fa-fa (sad song) - Otis Redding
The Makings Of You - Curtis Mayfield
Baby Sitter - Betty Wright
Walk Don't Run - Ventures*
Son of a Preacher Man - Dusty Springfield
Don't Look Back In Anger - Oasis
Motorcycle Emptiness - Manic Street Preachers
Men's Needs - The Cribs
City of Delusion - Muse
Anenome - The Brian Jonestown Massacre*
Under My Thumb - The Rolling Stones
Waterloo Sunset - The Kinks
Budapest (Joakim Italo Dub) - Poni Hoax*
Strawberry Fields Forever - The Beatles

*Background music for when I mumbled about stuff

(Feel My Heat): The Return

Fist Show of the New Year:

Indian Hump - Madlib*
Greetings to the New Brunette - Billy Bragg
1952 Vincent Black Lightning - Richard Thompson
If I Should Fall Behind - Bruce Springsteen & The Sessions Band
Gladius - Oh No*
Almost Blue - Elvis Costello & The Attractions
My Funny Valentine - Chet Baker
Movie Finale - Madlib*
Broken Record - Sweatshop Union
Got Up This Morning - Sage Francis
Building Steam With a Grain of Salt - DJ Shadow
Deserter - Matthew Dear
I'll Be By Your Side - Sally Shapiro
E=MC2 - Big Audio Dynamite
Excerpt 1: Slew Test 2 / Mosquito vs. Water Buffalo / Slew Test 3A - Kid Koala*
Steppin' Out - Joe Jackson
Town Called Malice - The Jam
Multiply - Jamie Lidell
Sound and Vision - David Bowie
Sock It to 'Em Soul Brother (Instrumental) - Bill Moss*
Gente Ordinaria (Bonus Track) - Aloe Blacc
Stop Me - Mark Ronson featuring Daniel Merriweather
Is There a Ghost - Band of Horses
Sweet Avenue - Jets to Brazil
The Payback (Gotta) - Madlib*
Lazy Eye - Silversun Pickups
Another Morning Stoner - ...And You Will Know Us By the Trail of Dead
Oh Messy Life - Cap'n Jazz
Keep The Car Running - The Arcade Fire
Nothing Like This - J Dilla*
Time of No Reply - Nick Drake
This Is the Way - Devendra Banhart
Rose Parade - Elliott Smith
Your Bright Baby Blues - Jackson Browne
Famous Blue Raincoat - Leonard Cohen
Bye - J Dilla*
Time - Tom Waits

*Musical Interlude. Thank You Stones Throw

Ennui/Melencholia with For FAP/BP

A long relationship has just ended. If it ended like most relationships do it was not because you caught the other cheating. It ended because the two of you were changing. Because the spark that was once there does not seem to be there. Because one person is becoming colder and more distant while the other is still head over heals for the other. And while being broken up with sucks, breaking up with someone hurts as well. If you have been in a longer term relationship then clearly you care about that person. And you are the one who has to tell them that things have changed. That while you care for them you don't want them romantically any more. And you hold out hope that they will return to that special place in your heart, you are still worried that it might not. And while you may not vomit and cry in the same violent manner, you do cry and vomit and try anything to let yourself forget for a moment about how much it hurts. And the only position that feels good is the fetal position. And your friends don't understand why you are blue because they claim you are free. All you are really free from is the person that you care about and would have given the world for. Because while you are no longer in a romantic relationship you still care about them more than yourself.



In honor of all the playlists I have received from my dad here are my ten saddest songs:

Elliott Smith - Rose Parade
Trying to pick the saddest Elliott Smith song is like choosing your favorite child. You can do it but man is that an evil process. This is just the Smith song that I have been listening to the most lately.

Leonard Cohen - Famous Blue Raincoat
When you want a laugh you go to Cohen. This is a pretty morose song. About the one that got away or you let get away. A love letter to her.

Elvis Costello - Almost Blue
Elvis works for both break up playlist and broken up playist. This is the the broken up. I knew he was angry I did not know he could go sad, at least not quite like this.

Tom Waits - Time
"And its time/And its time/And its time, time, time that you loved me/And its time/time/time" If there has been a sadder lyric I haven't heard it. Description of the morose night owls.

Nick Drake - Time of No Reply
A hall of famer for the mopey sad guys. I could explain why the song is on here but why bother?

Chet Baker - My Funny Valentine
I haven't decided if that is actually one of the saddest songs or not but it is in heavy rotation right now. It sounds sad to me but it might just be my brain connecting the dots.

Pearl Jam - Black
Its a hit. You have heard it. You may have even cried to it. Certainly helped bring down your day.

Jackson Browne - Fountain of Sorrow
I grew up on Jackson Browne therefore I do not nessicarly associate him with sadness. then I listened to the lyrics. I thought about jumping out my window and then I remembered it was a second story. So instead I just lay in bed.

The Mountain Goats - Get Lonely
This is sad. This is so sad that it only makes sense after the relationship has just ended.

Band of Horses - Is There A Ghost
Not that sad compared to the others. In fact I think there is hope in the song which makes it a good end note but its still not happy. As I lay here I see a possible speck of light with this song.

And I know what you are thinking right now, "What about Bright Eyes?" Well, they just don't really do it for me right now. They are angst-y and I like them but they are not blue.

thoughts

There are somethings you can only listen to on your headphones, ...and you will know us by the trail of dead is one of those bands. Nothing else to say about it.

I am thinking of putting all my one acts together as one monsterous play/movie/idea they all sorta fit together

I really should drop geo but why bother? Not hard just boring

Shows, no Class

College sorta sucks. Its hard to say deffinitively that is totally does or totally doesn't. I have fun on the weekends when I am with my friends but when I am stuck in my room I want to transfer. I can't stand my roommate or the people I live next too. So maybe if I just transfer rooms I will be happier.

Class aren't great but that is simply because I am in gigantic classes.

I went to Against Me! Last night and had a lot of fun. Its always good to go to shows just to do something and meet new people. Something I will say in for the punk community it is pretty welcoming. I guess you can't be the community of outsiders and then shun people. I am pretty sure I am going to make my buddy go to Bad Religion and go to Social Distortion over thanksgiving.

There are not enough random comics in the world. Scratch that there are plenty but I don't have enough.

A wish list for any reading who want to send something to me: Flannel Shirts, Size 12 Chuck Taylors, 40 of Malt Liquor, Skateboard, Black Sweatshirt, Random Stuff

Punk Rock Love...A Favorite

Punk rock love is fucking behind the dumpster down the street from the show. Fucking in the shower at the Hotel Carlton. Making out in the recycle bin. Looking at her tattoos while she's asleep. Taking showers together. Playing checkers with cigarette butts. Watching her band play. Dumpstering veggies together and then going back to her place and cooking up a feast. Knowing the same parts of the same songs. Both of you having the same ex-girlfriend. Punk rock love is having to tie her shoes for her cuz she's too drunk. Kissing under the overpass. Her sending you her whole diary to read. Her giving you ten rolls of duct tape for your birthday. Her beating up skinheads. Going to the prom on her motorcycle and checking in the helmets at the coatcheck. Getting astonished stares from all the jocks who thought you were gay, now they feel dumb cuz you're with an older punk rock bombshell and they're with their friend's little sister. Punk rock love is meeting her outside the club and her saying come home with me or I'm gonna kick your fuckin ass. Going home with her and she almost kicks your ass anyway. Sharing hairdye. Riding double on a bike. Being loud and not caring. Sneaky eyes and sleeveless t-shirts. The sun coming up and you realizing that there's other people on the beach. A good sleazy one week stand. Still being friends afterwards, most of the time. Punk rock love is her sneaking out in the middle of the night to meet you in the park. Running your fingers over her spikey hair. Her chewing on a flower and you having to call poison control when her tongue swells up. Bringing her to the laundromat for a date. Sharing a sleeping bag and waking up freezing in the middle of the night and her, bleary eyed, trying to heat it up with a blowdrier. Social Unrest playing "Ever Fallen in Love?" at the gig you're both at the night after she dumps you hard. Starting smoking again after that night. Punk rock love is her drawing on you. Her sleeping on your back. Her being mad at you for being such a jerk. Her thinking it's cool that you stink and your hair stands up by itself. Her having weird roommates who worship eggs. You waiting in the doorway for hours hoping she might pass by. Even in the snow. Her singing along with Descendents records over the air on her late night radio show. Her picture on the front page of the morning paper, getting arrested. Her borrowing your favorite black hat and never giving it back. Punk rock love is finding a girl who drinks as much coffee as you do. Going into the cafe where she works and she looks up and smiles and doesn't notice as she trips over a pile of 50 dishes. They hit the floor one by one and when it's all done everyone in the cafe applauds and you both turn beet red. Punk rock love is both of you doing fanzines. Years later her teaching English to college freshmen, you still doing fanzines. Her wearing glasses through her eyes are fine, using crutches though her legs are fine, and talking with a fake speech impediment. You just thinking it's rad girl style, until later when someone brings up the concept of self-imposed handicaps. Punk rock love is getting your first kiss and almost losing your virginity at the same time, meanwhile you're trying not to wake up the other person sleeping in the same bed. Groping in the bushes by the freeway and later you realize that all the passing cars could see you. Exploring the wasteland together. holding hands out on the fire escape. Lying in the grass in her backyard. Lying on the astroturf in her bedroom. Drinking tequila on her porch, on your birthday. Riding on her motorcylce early in the cold morning and you're holding on tight and steam is rising off of the river and you're thinking how she is maybe even better than the Ramones. Punk rock love is both being broke. Love letters. Finding out she sang "Stay Free" at her high school talent show. Finding out she's a little crazier than you thought when you finally get her in bed. Her boyfriend getting mad. Walking around with her and her nephew and everyone giving you dirty looks cuz they think he's your kid. Walking around with her and being happy and proud. Being sad together. Being sad by yourself. Missing her.'

Fashion

Can some explain fashion to me? I thought I had a gripe on it and then people do things I don't get. Like I understand that what is worn on the runway will not be worn on the street. I also understand that some people have bad or unique fashion. But what the fuck is with all these guys trying to look like Dads? Tucked in dress shirts, cargo shorts, baseball hats trying to covert the bald spot and 5 o'clock shadows. I am not sure if they are students or parents coming to get their kids.

Also what the fuck is with polo shirt dresses. I see girls wearing them everywhere. I looks like they stole an incredibly fat, incredibly tall guys shirt and decided it would work as a dress. It doesn't. It basically makes you look fat/poorly formed. And stop poping your damn coalar.

Who knows maybe I just don't know how to dress.

Return

After a year of not blogging I have returned. I decided to start up again after blogs like One D at a Time and Sex, Drugs, and Narcissism. I wish my blog would be as good as theres but thats probably not going to happen. I just hope I will get more than two people to look at it.

Feel my heat 9/16

bloc party - helicopter
arctic monkeys - fake tales of san fransisco
dizzee rascal - fix up, look sharp
chemical brothers - block rockin beats
lcd soundsystem - daft punk is playing on my house
bright eyes - take it easy(love nothing)
of montreal - Requim for O.M.M
Beck - girl
Toots and Maytals - pressure drop
bob marley - punky reagee party
Matisyahu - youth
Murs - L.A.
danger doom feat. talib kweli - old school
the dandy warhols - smoke it
death from above 1979 - blood on our hands
franz ferdinhand - the fallen
flogging molly - seven deadly sins
the flaming lips - yeah yeah yeah song
violent femmes - kiss off
gnarls barkley - gone daddy gone
ryan adams - to be young
my morning jacket - one big holiday
bright eyes - make war
whiskeytown - 16 days
wilco - jesus, etc.
tom waits - make it rain

Feel My Heat

That's right continuing the long trend of me being a rock nerd I have my own college radio station. The name of the show is Feel My Heat, and I will be playing all sorts of stuff. Not suprising if you have seen my ipod. But you can count on hearing a fair amount of Tom Waits, Elvis Costllo, Bowie, and Johnny Thunders. Along with my favorite new artists.

Oh and if you are interested Butch Walker should be famous. His new album The Rise and Fall of Butch Walker and the lets go out tonites is great. It 70's British glam with a modern La feel.

Butch Walker - Hot Girls in Good Moods
Head Automatica - New York is Burning
Dirty Pretty Things - Gin and Milk
Tom Waits - Way down in the Hole
Elvis Costello - (I don't want to go to) Chelsea

ASP Redux

Hello from Ohio...I am good thanks for asking but we have more impotant business A Sophmoric Production has been updated. And its finally returned to form. No more story pieces that are connected and making a story. No more random scenes for my brothers friends in a fast food joint. Just pure slacking. Same Characters as before. Mike and Tommy just continuing to waste thier potential. But this time with commentary on modern television. Thats its two guys watchin tv. Pure Brillance.

Top 5
Social Distortion - Prison Bound
Replacements - Waitress in the Sky
Kings of Leon - Four Kicks
Mike Ness - Don't Think Twice
Adolescents - Who is Who

gaye marriage

I sincerely stand against gay marriage. No its not because it is an attack on the scared practice of marriage or it is not supported by the bible. When you can get married drunk at 4 am in Las Vegas by an Elvis impersonating Mr. spock with one blood shot eye, clearly your institution is in trouble. No I stand against it because I believe in the sanctity of divorce. Divorce is between a man and a woman who clearly hate each other. And with any luck this divorce can occur when after the couple have had a couple kids. And as we know gays can adopted but they can't have children through the relationship and what fun is a divorce with out running the lives of several innocent children aswell? So keep up the good fight Mr. Bush just change our rationality about gay marriage, just like you did with the war in Iraq. Because we all know that when we can't find a link between al-queda and gay marriage, we can then say that gays have wmd's and once that doesn't work we can believe that we are protecting the sancitity of the gay people.

top 5
blondie - x offender
x-ray spex - I am a cliche
the queers - punk rock girls
tom waits - way down in the hole
the jam - going underground

Apathy

There was a new york times editorial today which pointed out that world war three can be started by several diffrent scenarios and each one is likely. Which really just depresses me. Dallas wrote about the lack of protest songs by young hip bands. And he is totally correct there isn't much. Mostly because the youth no longer feel the urge to do anything. It seems like there is no passion in my generation, no one wants to protest, no one wants to fuck authority, seems like my generation just likes to be raped over by Bush. My generation - generation Apathy.

top 5
seu jorge - five years
Diverse and Mos Def - Wylin' out
desaparecidos - popn' off at the F
TSOL - World War III
(What's so Funny about) Peace, Love, and Understanding

bands

So in the past two days I have seen two of the best live shows ever: Gnarls Barkley and the Flaming Lips. Seriously if you have the chnace to see either band I highly suggest seeing them. Gnarls Barkley was very entertaining and funny. And the Flaming Lips show was amazing I can not describe the show. It was sorta like a kids birthday party, an acid trip and a rock concert mixed with plenty of technicolor. Seriously after a string of lesser concerts, warped tour, and less active and visually pleasing concerts but great sounding, pearl jam and sonic youth, it was fun to see bands that mixed both aspects so well. So ya my life has been changed.

Anyway I saw clerks II today, in fact I saw the first show at my local movie theater. It was okay it had its moments, but it was not as good as the first clerks. But then again it was better than Mallrats or Jay and Silent Bob. So it was a return to form for Kevin Smith but it just isn't quite up to his original work.

Top 5
Gnarls Barkley - Go-Go Gadet Gospel
Flaming Lips - Bohemian Rapsodey
The Black Keys - All Hands His Own
Ted Leo - Six Months in a Leaky Boat
Nick Lowe - Cruel To Be Kind

Conspiracy and Concerts

So does anyone else find it interesting that Kenneth Lay is dead? I mean this is one of the most dangerous men in the world for George Bush, and he happens to die. Now some people think it is a suicide and others think it is a murder, me I just think it is an impossible coincidence. But then again what would happen to Bush? Nothing its not like his numbers can go any lower.

On a happier not I saw Pearl Jam last night. They put on a great show and really are the biggest band in the world, not necessarily the most popular but goddamn can they play. They are in a hard place since they can play there greatest hits every night like there hero's, the who and rolling stones; or they can play whatever they want and lose people who go who like the music but just the greatest hit and only have their fan base, similar to Neil Young. But Pearl Jam did a great job of mixing the two. Plus they had Rodney on the rock introduce them which is just cool. Oh and for those of you wondering the opening band was Sonic Youth. I believe that this is the perfect 90's show. And as Eddie said SAVE TRESTLES

Top 5
Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Ain't no Easy Way
Tom Waits - Heartattack and Vine
Pearl Jam - Off he Goes
X - Fourth of July
Rolling Stones - Dead Flowers

nothingness

Hurray I got my laptop to connect to my internet, so now I freedom of motion where I type and I am not dependent on my ipod for music. It seems like a minor miracle that it worked since I am techology illiterate.

I highly recomend the book Nothing Feels Good by Andy Greenwald. It is all about teenagers, punk rock, and emo. Audrey and I both enjoyed reading it.

top 5
alkaline trio - mercy me
smashing pumpkins - daydream
tom waits - cold cold ground
Nas - N.Y. State of Mind
Kanye West - two words

Ohio: A recap

For all of you that didn't know I was in Ohio for Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday this week. Here is a recap of what happened:

• Got to the airport, the airline didn't have record of our tickets but they did eventually find them
• My mom spilled an entire bottle of water in he purse ruining the maps and orientation papers we had
• Lost my keys in the airport at some point and no longer have keys to my car, my brothers car or my la fitness tag
• Got stuck in the small airplane ever
• Landed in Chicago to find that due to weather the plan we were supposed to take to Dayton was delayed and kept getting delayed
• Met a crystal meth addict who was missing everyone but two of his teeth
• Decided to drive from Chicago to Dayton, over 300 miles apart, starting at 11 pm
• Saw over 20 abandoned cars and 1,000 truckers
• Saw all of Indiana, let me tell you it is flat
• Went to a convince stare at 3 am in Podunk Indiana and met a nice cashier who was missing all her teeth
• Got to my hotel at 4 in the morning in Dayton
• Blew off morning orientation
  
• Found out that Dayton and Miami are not very close and took over hour and half to get there
• Got directions from a friendly chain smoking mailman
• Finally arrived at Miami at noon
• Sat through most important parts of Orientation, what to pick for classes
• Found out that I am not allowed to drink at college and that sexual assault is a serious offense
• Learned what Corn Holing was
• Didn't sleep in the dorms because my roommate got up so many times
• Got my classes and discovered that were some kids at Miami that were preps
• Drove again from Miami to Chicago, taking a longer distance trip but faster since we avoided most of the construction on highways
• Saw the rest of Indiana and Illinois I hadn't scene; Who knew that Americans still farmed
• Found out that the airline canceled my tickets due to the fact that I didn't take the Dayton flight; resulting in me buying tickets for a flight that I already had tickets for
• Met Callan in the Chicago airport on accident, she was comign back from Paris, we caught up on everythign that had been going on
• Had my flight from Chicago delayed over two hours due to Weather and President Bush
• On the plane Callan discovered that she had lost her ipod, she cried; I felt her pain
• Eventually I got home

It was a wild ride. And I don't think that anyone will quite appreciate what middle America's like just by reading this little synopsis

Emo-core and Waiting for Godot

Haven't blogged in awhile.
Haven't had much to say.
Still don't have much to say.
I have been happy the past couple days.
Today I hung around waiting for people to be able to do something.
No one was able to do anything.
I spent most of the day listening to punk and emo.
I like punk and emo.
I wish my friends liked punk and emo.
I wish there were more punks and emo kids that were my friends.
I wish my school allowed more of them.
I want my tv to work cause I want to watch noggin right now.
I am a sucker for canadian Mellow-drama.
I am a sucker for girls who say aboot.

top5
the promise ring - red and blue jeans
jawbreaker - chesterfield king
hot water music - trusty chords
minor threat - screaming at a wall
the blood brothers - ambulance vs. ambulance

the play

see I wrote about wanting to resseruct A Sophmoric Production but really I have nothing to write about and for the most part have lost insipartion for it. I think I am going to include the short parts that I wrote in the Original play along with a new more graphic and depressing ending. This one does not let mike get off easy. In fact I am sure that it will be sure to shock many of you. Anyway that is really what is happening with it is a couple new minor parts, editing for the first time, and a new ending. And if anyone is interested I want to film this thing. Kinda a fun little project for summer since seniors have jack shit to do. I expect that it won't actually get filmed but we can pretend for a coupel days that it might. By the way I don't want to play Mike. So if anyone wants that role they can have it.

top 5
The Animals - Good Times
Roxy Music - The Bob
Lou Reed - Street Hassle
Patti Smith - Gloria
The Scientists - Last night

Back Packin in Central Ohio

A mix that I was listen to when I went to Miami
All Liberal Art style back pack hip hop

Kanye West - School Spirit
Foreign Exchange - All that you are
Notorious B.I.G - Hold Ya Head
Sage Francis - Personal Journalist
Aesop Rock - Fast Cars
Atmosphere - Smart Went Crazy
Jurassic 5 - Quality Control
Atmosphere - Get Fly
Felt - Employees of the Year
Atmosphere - Substance Abuse
Gangstarr - Battle
J-Live - Hush the Crowd
El Da Sensei - Crowd Pleasa
Jurassic 5 - Concrete Schoolyard
Hieroglyphics - Classic
Living Legends - Night Prowler
Eyedea and Abilities - Big shot
Soul Position - Keep it Hot for Daddy
Lootpack - Long Awaited
Pharoahe Monch - My Life
Planet Asia - All these Beats
Talib Kweli - Drugs, Basketball, & Rap