the human victory cigar

That would be Jack Haley. The man my family nearly got into a fight with. My dad said that his kid pushed my brother in the back causing him to get hurt, it looked like that. He called my dad a mother fucker, hes classy like that. I got into him for the hell of it, I am proud and stupid like that. The man said fuck more then any grown and supposedly educated man should. He called my dad and I ignorant, I believe he meant insular. Although being called ignorant like that reminds me of South Park. Anyway it was stupid although it brought to light some problems, but that is not important. What is important is to point out just how god awful a player he was. It takes a special kind of jack ass to be that proud and suck that hard. This is the most ink he has ever gotten.

For a Laugh:
http://www.basketball-reference.com/players/h/haleyja01.html

52

52 weeks in a year. For my new years resolution I am going to try to read 52 books this year. A book a week basically. I haven't decided if I am counting books I have to read for class or not. And I will count graphic novels (read: long comic books) as books. And not just read but finish them since I am a great half reader. So a book a week is the goal. I am also going to do this with albums. Much less difficult but whatever I have goals and I am going to try and meet them.

By the way, if any of you are looking for a new book: And Then We Came to the End. I highly recommend it. Kind of like the office but in book form, and missing Steve Carrell.

And I really want to see There Will Be Blood. It looks like an even gritter version of No Country for Old Men.

Ok I am done name dropping for now. Happy Holidays!

(feel my heat): The Best of 2007

Wet and Rusting - Menomena
Fake Empire - The National
Imitosis - Andrew Bird
Fa-Fa-Fa - Datarock*
(top 5 old songs of the year)
Greetings to the New Brunette - Billy Bragg
She Bangs the Drums - The Stone Roses
My Little Underground - The Jesus and Mary Chain
Sometimes - My Bloody Valentine
Five Years - David Bowie
Outta Sight - Osborne*
(Artists with Multiple Entires)
No Cars Go - The Arcade Fire
Take Pills - Panda Bear
Someone Great - LCD Soundsystem
Paper Planes - M.I.A.
Bout Ready to Jak - Osborne*
(Top Songs that Will Never Be Played on the Radio)
Archangel - Burial
To Fix The Gash In Your Head - A Place to Bury Strangers
Sailing to Byzntium - Liars
Heatherwood - Deerhunter
Jah - M.A.N.D.Y.*
(Pop Artist of the Year: T-Pain)
Good Life - Kanye West Feat. T-Pain
Buy U a Drank (Shawty Snappin') - T-Pain featuring Yung Joc
Kiss Kiss (Feat. T-Pain) - Chris Brown
Jah War (Loefah Remix) - The Bug featuring Flowdan*
(Top 10 Songs of the Year)
Int'l Players Anthem (I Choose You) [UGK featuring OutKast] - UGK
The Sons of Cain - Ted Leo
Pom Pom - Matthew Dear
Is There a Ghost - Band of Horses
Smithereens - El-P
New Wave - Against Me!
None Shall Pass - Aesop Rock
You Got Yr. Cherry Bomb - Spoon
Keep The Car Running - The Arcade Fire
All My Friends - LCD Soundsystem
BONUS XMAS SONG: Fairytale of New York - The Pogues

*Interlude Music

(feel my heat): For Shareen

Blonde Redhead - Spring by Summerfall
Shocking Pinks - This Aching Deal
A Place to Bury Strangers - I Know I'll See You
Cat Power - BabyDoll
Band of Horses - Is There a Ghost
Arcade Fire - Neightborhood 3 - Power Out
Interpol - No I in Threesome
Deerhunter - Cryptograms
Liars - Houseclouds
Tv On the Radio - Dreams
Yeah Yeah Yeah's - Down Boy
The Moon Upstairs - Never Throught Twice
Spoon - Don't You Evah
My Morning Jacket - Lowdown
The National - Fake Empire
Division Day - Little Blood
Long Blondes - Once and Never Agian
Camera Obscura - Lets Get Out of This Country
Jens Lekman - Opposite of Hallejuah
Wooden Shjips - Loose Lips
Band of Horses - Plans
White Williams - Route to Palm
Working for a Nuclear Free City - Rocket
Massive Attack - Safe From Harm
Joe Smooth - Promise land

Top Albums

And now for the completion of the trifecta!

Top Albums of the Year:
In no real order...

1. LCD Soundsystem - Sound of Silver: I love LCD Soundsystem. They are like a new Talking Heads/David Bowie to me. I probably like this record too much.
   
2. Arcade Fire - Neon Bible: Personally I think this album was every bit as good as Funeral but I know a lot of people don't feel that way. I loved a bunch of tracks on this record (see best songs). In think this is the only way to follow up being made into Indie Kings.
   
3. Spoon - Ga Ga Ga Ga Ga: Uneven and inconsistent. Probably the biggest problem with Spoon. But when they are firing on all levels they are amazing. This album has more hits than misses and I recommend it. There are some skipable tracks but "Got Yr Cherry Bomb" makes up for everything.
   
4. EL-P - I'll Sleep When Your Dead: This is one that you love or hate. Either the beats are too loud and too intense for you or you share his paranoia. Kinda like Black Flag doing a Rap record, only better.
   
5. Against Me! - New Wave: A lot of people did not like this record. I can appreciate that. The album is way way too glossy but there is a lot of good music underneath it. See the band in concert and you will see how great the record can be.
   
6. Panda Bear - Person Pitch: This is an epic album. It is a beautiful and overwhelming. The sounds that come out are amazing. White Noise meet Melody, and great tracks that are both soothing and energizing. It is a maximal minimal record.
   
7. Band of Horses - Cease to Begin: I originally trashed this record, and now I like it a lot. The melodies are sweet and the band is trying new things. It grew on me and there a couple killer songs. I say go for it.
   
8. Ted Leo - Living with the Living: People love Ted Leo. And it is impossible not too love him. He sings great songs with out forcing greatness, he cares about people genuinely, and the man is a punk/rock god. So this record was not as great as Shake the Sheets, it was still great. The world is just waiting for that one perfect album from Leo because we know he can do it.
   
9. The Long Blondes - Someone to Drive Your Home: I wanted a British album and I got one. Along the way they update "Every Picture Tells Story Don't It" but from a girls point of view. Anyway this is solid and I think everyone should get it.
   
10. Burial - Untrue: Other than the first two and this album the rest of the albums are not in order. Untrue is a good record but I am not sure if it is a great record. It is dark and twisting, able to interest the listener but not overwhelm. Yet I don't know in six months from now if I will still be listening.
    

Other Notable Releases:

• Aesop Rock - None Shall Pass
  
• Black Dice - Blown Load
• Los Campesinos! - Sticking Fingers into Sockets E.P.
• Matthew Dear - Asa Breed
• Black Moth Super Rainbow - Dandelion Gum
  
• Dinosaur Jr. - Beyond
• Okkervil River - Stage Names
• Justice - Cross
• Caribou - Andorra
  
• !!! - Myth Takes
• Bonde Do Role - With Lasers
• Andrew Bird - Armchair Apocrophya
• Feist - The Reminder
• Menonmena - Friend or Foe
• Klaxons - Myths of the Near Future

Great but shouldn't go in a new music since they are collections:

• Sigur Ros - Hvarf/Heim
• Elliott Smith - New Moon

Biggest Disappointments:

• Bright Eyes - Casadega: Too much. Too many words, too many sounds, too many ideas. Maybe someday he could pull this off but not now. Also it sounded as if Oberst took himself even more seriously this time around.
  
• Kanye West - Graduation: He had to fail. there was too much pressure too high expectations. Was it terrible? No. Just wasn't good as Dropout or Late Registration. It had some good songs but it had some really bad ones. For every "Stronger" there was "Drunk and Hot Girls".
  
• Bloc Party - A Weekend in the City: Loved the first album and hated this one. What happened to the dancing? the pointyness? the chorus? Bloc Party went from a Gang of Four inspired band, to a bad Smith ripoff bad.
  
• The Stooges - The Weirdness
• Clap Your Hands and Say Yeah - Some Thunder
• James Murphy - Fabric Live Series Comp
• Interpol - Our Love to Admire: This was not so much bad as it was the same. They have a sound and for two or three songs it is good, but they need to change it up. If I want to hear an entire Joy Division album I will put on Closer.
  
• Prodigy - Return of the Mac
  

Top Songs

Top 15 Songs (Not In Order)

1. Arcade Fire - Keep the Car Running
2. LCD Soundsystem - All My Friends
3. MIA - Paper Planes
4. EL-P - Smithereens
5. Aesop Rock - None Shall Pass
6. The National - Fake Empire
7. Kanye West - Good Life
8. T-Pain - Buy U a Drank
9. UGK - Intl Players Anthem (I Choose You)
10. Spoon - Got Yr Cherry Bomb
11. Against Me! - New Wave
12. Burial - Archangel
    
13. Band of Horses - Is There a Ghost?
14. Panda Bear - Bros
15. Ted Leo - Sons of Cain

That was quite hard so there are a lot of other great songs and here is a list.

Other Top songs: (Repeat Bands)

• LCD Soundsystem - Someone Great
• Arcade Fire - No Cars Go
• Arcade Fire - Intervention
• El-P - Run the Numbers
• Sage Francis - Got Up This Morning
• Bright Eyes - 4 Winds
• Queens of Stone Age - Sick Sick Sick
• Los Campesinos! - You! Me! Dancing
• Kathy Diamond - All Woman
• Dan Deacon - Wham City
• Liars - Sail to Byzantium
• Panda Bear - Take Pills
• Panda Bear - Comfy in Nautica
• Against Me! - Thrash Unreal
• Battles - Leyendecker
• Animal Collective - Peacebone
• Justice - D.A.N.C.E.
• Explosions in the Sky - Birth and Death of a Day
  

There are lots and lots more but that is what I can think of at the moment so enjoy!

Fire Alarms and Incompletes

Someone in my building has been pulling the fire alarm. This morning at 4:30 AM and then again around 4 PM. I am organizing a lynching party and we will start to randomly execute people if this does not stop.

In other news it is the end of the year and I am thinking about doing what everyone does at this point in the year and making best of lists. It will probably be best albums, best old albums, best movies, best singles, and lastly best stuff I never heard. So lets get it on:

Best Stuff I Never Heard - to be eligible they are songs and albums that I never bought all of:

MIA - Kala

• I never got into MIA. Seemed too gimicky. She has so really good songs, but it seemed to be too fake. Then I heard "Paper Planes". I still have doubts but man oh man is that a good song. The other songs I have heard from Kala have been solid as well. So maybe I will buy this album and it will leap to the top of the heap.
  

The National - Boxer

• In an interview I read the lead singer said that people constantly say their songs grow on people which he took to the mean he could write a hook. This is partially true, the songs do not quite bet you over the head with greatness but they are good. "Fake Empire" is my favorite and in my top songs of the year.
  

Radiohead - In Rainbows

• I am not a huge Radiohead fan. I think what they have done with digital downloads is revolutionary. Personally I still like to be own the album, the physical case and the artwork. I haven't heard this album but have heard a lot of good things. I will buy it when I can get a hard copy.
  

Les Savy Fav - Lets Stay Friends

• I got into Les Savy Fav at the beginning of school. They are kind of a hard band to listen to but they are pretty awesome. Loud and Absurd and I have heard the live show is amazing. "Best Before Year 2000" is my favorite song from the album that I have heard.
  

Battles - Mirrored

• Meshing human and computer in ways that Kraftwerk nor T-Pain could imagine. I am not sure that an entire album of this would be enjoyable, but a couple songs are good to break up the playlists. My favorite is "Leyendecker".
  

A Place to Bury Strangers - S/T

• This year I got really into Jesus and Mary Chain. These guys are a lot like Jesus and Mary Chain but with My Bloody Valentine technology. The songs are loud and overwhelming like swimming in a sea of guitar. Ultra hard to find, I guess, but they are on itunes. "Ocean" or "I Know I'll See" are the songs.

Of Montreal - Hissing Fauna, Are You the Destroyer?

• This and Modest Mouse's new album are the two albums I can not figure out why I did not buy. I really like Of Montreal and have no idea why I don't own this album. All the tracks I have heard are solid. And the EP they released right after this is also very good.
  

Deerhunter - Cryptograms

• I alternate between hating and liking this group. Pitchfork is way too in love with them and the lead singer annoys me, but the music is pretty damn good. Maybe a little to homo-erotic for my taste but it is interesting and invigorating. "Crytograms" which is track one is my favorite song, sounds a lot like Joy Division.
  

Liars - Liars

• Seriously weird guys but seriously good tunes. They seem to go all over the place with their records but not in a kitsch way. I am interested to hear all of this one. "Sailing to Byzantium" is my personal favorite track.
  

Animal Collective - Strawberry Jam

• Another wild album. Panda Bear, who is a member of Animal Collective, put out an album that I loved. Thus I checked this out. Sometimes the songs are a little too long and wild but other times they are great. "Peacebone" is the track I would check out and if you like it then try the rest of the album.

Ok so there are the top ten albums I haven't heard all of. There are plenty more and honorable mentions goes to:

Dan Deacon - Spiderman of the Rings
Black Lips - Good Bad Not Evil
Modest Mouse - We Were Dead Before the Ship Even Sank
The Field - From Here We Go Sublime
Akron/Family - Love is Simple
Jose Gonzales - In Our Nature
High On Fire - Death is Communion
Black Octopus Project - Hello, Avalanche
Shocking Pinks - S/T
Simian Mobile Disco - Attack Decay Sustain Release
Wiley - Play Time is Over
Dizziee Rascal - Maths + English
Two Gallants - S/T

Hint - All of these Albums would make excellent gifts - Hint

A Recomendation

If you like dark music or electronic music, I highly recommend the new Burial album - Untrue. It is an incredibly dark album. The whole album sounds like a dark foggy alley. Lots of reverb and deep bass. Distorted vocals and unconventional beats. I have not decided if it is a top ten album yet, but it wouldn't surprise me. It is a labyrinth of an album twisting and turning going from light and beautiful to dark and cold in the course of ten seconds. Truly something that has to be experienced.

Another album that I reviewed this was Sigur Ros latest album Hvarf - Heim. It is a solid album. Show casing the light and beauty that Sigur Ros is capable of. The first half of the album is all new material, the second half is live versions of tracks. They are all solid and continue to inspire and perpetuate belief in humanity and good. The songs sound like sunrise on a glacier or at least what I hope it sounds like since I have never experienced that.

Anyway those are two albums that are recently released and I recommend. They serve as a point and counter point to each other. The dark and the light.

All That Could Have Been

Last nights show sucked. I am sorry that it did not work out. Anyway here is what was and what could have been.

(feel my heat):What was
Live Forever - Oasis
What Became Of The Likely Lads - The Libertines
Generator - The Holloways
Sleep Deprivation - Simian Mobile Disco
God Knows - Mando Diao
Apply Some Pressure - Maximo Park
pacThe Prayer - Bloc Party
We Danced Together - The Rakes
Archangel - Burial
The New Pollution - Beck
Say It All - Sondre Lerche
Little Dawn - Ted Leo & The Pharmacists
Peter Bjorn and John - Young Folks
Oxford Collapse - Please Visit Your National Parks
Youth Group - Forever Young

(feel my heat) - What Could Have Been
I Feel Space - Lindstrøm
Snuff on Digital - Blaqk Audio
Here (In Your Arms) - Hellogoodbye
Thumbelina - Nightmare Of You
Body Language / Interpretation - Booka Shade
23 - Blonde Redhead
Phantom Limb - The Shins
Lost In the Supermarket - The Clash
Sorrow - Bad Religion
Jane - The Loved Ones
Massive Attack - Unfinished Symphony
Movin' Too Fast (Bump & Flex Mix) - Artful Dodger & Romina Johnson
Weak Become Heroes (Royksopp's Memory Lane Mix) - The Streets
Take Me Back To Your House - Basement Jaxx

(feel my heat)

A couple of yall have been asking about podcasts here is the link:
http://www.feelmyheat.podcastpeople.com/

So now you know and hope you all can tune in

(feel my heat): Blonde on Heat

K-39 - Challengers
Sweet Leaf - Black Sabbath
Houses of the Holy - Led Zeppelin
Like a Hurricane - Neil Young
Evil Plans Of Planet Spectra - Man Or Astro-Man?
Black Hole Sun - Soundgarden
Nearly Lost You - Screaming Trees
Plowed - Sponge
Somebody To Shove - Soul Asylum
Pressure - The Pyramids
Hallelujah - Jeff Buckley
Impossible Germany - Wilco
Hoppípolla - Sigur Rós
Teen Angst - M83
Goin' To Acapulco - Jim James & Calexico
No Ones Gonna Love You - Band Of Horses
To Fix The Gash In Your Head - A Place To Bury Strangers
I Miss You - Blink-182
The Con - Tegan & Sara
It's All Been Done - Barenaked Ladies
Helium Heels - Darker My Love
All Along The Watchtower - Eddie Vedder & The Million Dollar Bashers
Despite What You've Been Told - Two Gallants
Gravity's Gone - Drive-By Truckers
The Man In The Long Black Coat - Mark Lanegan
Dark Was the Night (Cold Was the Ground) - Blind Willie Johnson
Where Did You Sleep Last Night - Nirvana
Salome - Old 97's
One Big Holiday - My Morning Jacket
Can't Hardly Wait (The Tim Version) - The Replacements
Statesboro Blues - Blind Willie McTell
Rainy Day Women #12 & 35 - Bob Dylan

I'm Not Blue Grass

Ok I decided to do a Non-(feel my heat) post. This about the records I want because I have heard good things. I want the new Bruce. I do not need to explain this. I want the new Robert Plant/Allison Krauss disc. I like both artists and I think it would be interesting to hear. Blue grass meets zep, now there is a mash up. Forget about Sri Lanken rappers, I want to hear Whole Lotta Love with an extended fiddle jam.

The best record I have received from WMSR is by far I'm Not There the soundtrack to the new Bob Dylan movie. I kid you not when I say, throw it on random and it will be nothing but good songs. If the movie is as good as this disc then it should sweep the Oscars. More importantly it is form a wide range of artists, all doing their best Bob Dylan impersonations and tunes.

Ok thats enough for now.

(feel my heat): The Boss

About a Girl - Nirvana
The Day I Tried to Live - Soundgarden
Hunger Strike - Temple of the Dog
Soul to Squeeze - Red Hot Chili Peppers
I Had Too Much to Dream (Last Night) - The Electric Prunes*
Alive - Pearl Jam
Live In a Hiding Place - Idlewild
Indefinitely - Old 97's
Pictures of Matchstick Men - Status Quo*
Stuck Between Stations - The Hold Steady
Intimate Secretary - The Raconteurs
Could We - Cat Power
You're Gonna Miss Me - The 13th Floor Elevators*
Saving Grace - Tom Petty
Someday Baby - Bob Dylan
Radio Nowhere - Bruce Springsteen
Incense and Peppermint - Strawberry Alarm Clock*
Counting Down The Hours - Ted Leo & The Pharmacists
My Doorbell - The White Stripes
(We Ain't Got) Nothin' Yet - The Blues Magoos*
Waltz, No. 2 (XO) - Elliott Smith
Sweet Avenue - Jets to Brazil
A Whiter Shade of Pale - Procol Harum*
New Wave - Against Me!
Sowing Season (Yeah) - Brand New
Understanding In a Car Crash - Thursday
Louie Louie - The Kingsmen*
Cinnamon Girl - Neil Young
And Your Bird Can Sing - The Beatles
Time of the Season - The Zombies*
Jenny Was a Friend of Mine - The Killers
Like Eating Glass - Bloc Party
Speed Of Sound - Coldplay

* Interlude music

Random Notes

So I once again I have A) Stopped Blogging B) Kinda Fucked Up C) Starting to do well in classes. I probably won't get straight A's this semester, but I am moving toward that direction hopefully. Its not so much I stopped blogging but rather I forget about it or don't have much to say. You don't really need to know how I fucked up, I did and I am trying to fix it and make it better. And doing well is just motivation maybe.

The fires in California are crazy. I guess that is what happens when there is drought and people living in areas they probably should not. Anyways I hope that no one is loosing their home and that everyone is safe.

This post was kinda worthless and boring sorry.

(feel my heat): Look Back In Anger

Can't Hardly Wait (The Tim Version) - The Replacements
Going Underground - The Jam
Janie Jones - The Clash
Tainted Love / Where Did Our Love Go (Extended Version) - Soft Cell*
Kiss Me Deadly - Generation x
Mirror In the Bathroom - The English Beat
I Melt With You - Modern English
Contort Yourself - James White And The Blacks*
The Last of the Famous International Playboys - Morrissey
Local Girls - Graham Parker & The Rumour
Lipstick Vogue - Elvis Costello
Chromophobia - Gui Boratto*
Smalltown Boy - Bronski Beat
Enjoy the Silence - Depeche Mode
Girlfriend Is Better - Talking Heads
Virginia Plain - Roxy Music
Nightclubbing - Iggy Pop
Unflug - Ricardo Villalobos*
Transmission - Joy Division
The Hanging Garden - The Cure
Autobahn - Kraftwerk*
Cherry-Coloured Funk - Cocteau Twins
Song to the Siren - This Mortal Coil
No Sad Goodbyes - Swayzak*
She Bangs the Drums - The Stone Roses
Unfinished Sympathy - Massive Attack
Retina - Apparat & Ellen Allien*
There's No Such Thing As Black Orchids - Lilys
I Only Said - My Bloody Valentine
Alison - Slowdive
vapour trail - Ride
Sour Times - Portishead*
Sonnet - The Verve
There Is A Light That Never Goes Out - The Smiths

*Background Music

Signs of the Apocalypse

Signs of the apocalypse:

• I did not hate the new Kid Rock Album
• The Bon Jovi song I heard on SNL was pretty good
• Did not love the Band of Horses
• Bush is still in office
• The Democrats are still not keeping up with the liberal base
• Rudy Gulliani

I ran out of this sorry.

But seriously as much as I wanted to hate Kid Rock he did a surprisingly good job. I would never buy it but since I got it for free, it was ok. Anyway I don't recommend it unless you can get it for free.

The Bon Jovi song was sounded a lot like modern Springsteen and Petty. I am looking forward to come home so I can hear the new Springsteen. I have heard good things about the album, sorta a pop-y sound much like the River. The Bon Jovi song is worth a listen, but if it sucks don't blame me.

This is a solid follow up to Everything All the Time. However it lacks the anthems that made Everything spectacular. Cease to Begin is by no means a bad album, in fact it probably comes in third for sophomore albums this year behind LCD Soundsystem and The Arcade Fire not bad company to be in. In fact this album is infinitely better than Bloc Parties Weekend in the City in my opinion. However the album lacks a song as strong as Funeral. Is there a Ghost? is a great song, but the album never again quite matches the greatness of that song. There are several good songs on here and all of the songs are in the solid to good range and no bad songs to speak of. However it lacks the anthems that made Everything all the time so appealing.

The other ones I don't really need to explain.

Updates

Ok, I have not blogged in forever. I am sorry. I have had crazy amounts of work and unlike high school I decided to do it. Anyway class are going well but I do not blog so I guess it is a trade off. I have also joined the new music committee for the radio station and I got the best release this yer: KID ROCK - ROCK N ROLL JESUS, more on that later. So here comes a dump of massive proportions.

Two of the worst shows I have done this year:

The Worst - Two Weeks Ago:
3's & 7's - Queens of the Stone Age
Colony of Birchmen - Mastodon
MURDERERS - JOHN FRUSCIANTE*
Are You Ten Years Ago - Tegan & Sara
Passion's Killing Floor - H.I.M. (His Infernal Majesty)
Inertia Creeps - Massive Attack*
Inertiatic Esp - The Mars Volta
When We Escape - Minus The Bear
Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
Heavy - Oh No*
Gideon - My Morning Jacket
The Great Salt Lake - Band of Horses
Goodnight Rose - Ryan Adams
Tuxedo Hat - The Octopus Project*
Spider Pig - Hans Zimmer
Romantic Rights - Death From Above 1979
Alala - CSS
Solta o Frango (Edit) - Bonde do Role
I Want You So Hard (Boys Bad News) - Eagles Of Death Metal
The Crystal Cat - Dan Deacon*
When Did Your Heart Go Missing? - Rooney
Poison Oak - Bright Eyes
Despite What You've Been Told - Two Gallants
Post Mortem, Post Bordem - Darker My Love
thickfreakness - The Black Keys
Sour Smoke - Comets On Fire*
Love and Happiness - Al Green
King of the Rodeo - Kings Of Leon
Hard To Explain - The Strokes
Ain't No Easy Way - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club
You Don't Know What Love Is (You Just Do As You're Told) - The White Stripes
Remember Me As a Time of Day - Explosions In The Sky*
Anenome - The Brian Jonestown Massacre
Let It Dive - ...And You Will Know Us By the Trail of Dead
The Great Gig In the Sky - Pink Floyd
Bikini Drag (From "Bikini Beach") - The Pyramids*
Alone Again Or - Love

Second Worst - Last Week:
Comfy In Nautica - Panda Bear
Someone Great - LCD Soundsystem
Tokyo - The Books*
Come Out, Come Down, Fade Out, Be Gone - 120 Days
I Zimbra - Talking Heads
Forever Heavy - Black Moth Super Rainbow*
You Got Yr. Cherry Bomb - Spoon
Melody Day - Caribou
Intervention - The Arcade Fire
Rollerdisco - Black Moth Super Rainbow*
A New England - Billy Bragg
Don't Stop Now - Crowded House
Teardrop - Jose Gonzalez
Teardrop - Massive Attack*
Everything In Its Right Place - Radiohead
Qawwali - Pinch
Leyendecker - Battles
Blood Rainbow - Tim Hecker*
Anenome - The Brian Jonestown Massacre
Claws & Paws - Darker My Love
Bohemian Like You - The Dandy Warhols
A Warm Place - Nine Inch Nails*
Fireworks - Animal Collective
Gimme Danger - Iggy Pop
Roadrunner - The Modern Lovers
Academy Fight Song - Mission of Burma
96 Tears - ? & The Mysterians*
The Bomb (Original Version) - New Young Pony Club
52 Girls - The B-52's
Sex And Dying In High Society - X
Alex Chilton - The Replacements
Walk Don't Run - Ventures*
Glamorous Glue - Morrissey
Hot Pants - James Brown*
Day And Night - The Jim Carroll Band

*Interlude Music

(feel my heat): Diminishing Returns

Cities - Talking Heads
Heart of Hearts - !!!
Don Gon Do It - The Rapture
Tribulations - LCD Soundsystem
Destroy Everything You Touch - Ladytron
Acceptable In the 80's - Calvin Harris*
Tonight I Have to Leave It - Shout Out Louds
Show Your Hand - Super Furry Animals
Fluorescent Adolescent - Arctic Monkeys
Two Sevens Clash - Culture*
Peace And Quiet - The Rifles
Generator - The Holloways
The Wildfire (If It Was True) - Mando Diao
Grumblin' Dub - The Upsetters*
Valerie - Mark Ronson featuring Amy Winehouse
Golden Years - David Bowie
Can't Get Used to Losing You - The English Beat
My Ever Changing Moods (12" Version) - The Style Council
Sneakin' Sally through the Alley - Robert Palmer
Telstar (LP Version) - The Challengers*
If You Want Me to Stay - Sly & The Family Stone
I Believe (When I Fall in Love It Will Be Forever) - Stevie Wonder
fa-fa-fa-fa-fa (sad song) - Otis Redding
The Makings Of You - Curtis Mayfield
Baby Sitter - Betty Wright
Walk Don't Run - Ventures*
Son of a Preacher Man - Dusty Springfield
Don't Look Back In Anger - Oasis
Motorcycle Emptiness - Manic Street Preachers
Men's Needs - The Cribs
City of Delusion - Muse
Anenome - The Brian Jonestown Massacre*
Under My Thumb - The Rolling Stones
Waterloo Sunset - The Kinks
Budapest (Joakim Italo Dub) - Poni Hoax*
Strawberry Fields Forever - The Beatles

*Background music for when I mumbled about stuff

(Feel My Heat): The Return

Fist Show of the New Year:

Indian Hump - Madlib*
Greetings to the New Brunette - Billy Bragg
1952 Vincent Black Lightning - Richard Thompson
If I Should Fall Behind - Bruce Springsteen & The Sessions Band
Gladius - Oh No*
Almost Blue - Elvis Costello & The Attractions
My Funny Valentine - Chet Baker
Movie Finale - Madlib*
Broken Record - Sweatshop Union
Got Up This Morning - Sage Francis
Building Steam With a Grain of Salt - DJ Shadow
Deserter - Matthew Dear
I'll Be By Your Side - Sally Shapiro
E=MC2 - Big Audio Dynamite
Excerpt 1: Slew Test 2 / Mosquito vs. Water Buffalo / Slew Test 3A - Kid Koala*
Steppin' Out - Joe Jackson
Town Called Malice - The Jam
Multiply - Jamie Lidell
Sound and Vision - David Bowie
Sock It to 'Em Soul Brother (Instrumental) - Bill Moss*
Gente Ordinaria (Bonus Track) - Aloe Blacc
Stop Me - Mark Ronson featuring Daniel Merriweather
Is There a Ghost - Band of Horses
Sweet Avenue - Jets to Brazil
The Payback (Gotta) - Madlib*
Lazy Eye - Silversun Pickups
Another Morning Stoner - ...And You Will Know Us By the Trail of Dead
Oh Messy Life - Cap'n Jazz
Keep The Car Running - The Arcade Fire
Nothing Like This - J Dilla*
Time of No Reply - Nick Drake
This Is the Way - Devendra Banhart
Rose Parade - Elliott Smith
Your Bright Baby Blues - Jackson Browne
Famous Blue Raincoat - Leonard Cohen
Bye - J Dilla*
Time - Tom Waits

*Musical Interlude. Thank You Stones Throw

Ennui/Melencholia with For FAP/BP

A long relationship has just ended. If it ended like most relationships do it was not because you caught the other cheating. It ended because the two of you were changing. Because the spark that was once there does not seem to be there. Because one person is becoming colder and more distant while the other is still head over heals for the other. And while being broken up with sucks, breaking up with someone hurts as well. If you have been in a longer term relationship then clearly you care about that person. And you are the one who has to tell them that things have changed. That while you care for them you don't want them romantically any more. And you hold out hope that they will return to that special place in your heart, you are still worried that it might not. And while you may not vomit and cry in the same violent manner, you do cry and vomit and try anything to let yourself forget for a moment about how much it hurts. And the only position that feels good is the fetal position. And your friends don't understand why you are blue because they claim you are free. All you are really free from is the person that you care about and would have given the world for. Because while you are no longer in a romantic relationship you still care about them more than yourself.



In honor of all the playlists I have received from my dad here are my ten saddest songs:

Elliott Smith - Rose Parade
Trying to pick the saddest Elliott Smith song is like choosing your favorite child. You can do it but man is that an evil process. This is just the Smith song that I have been listening to the most lately.

Leonard Cohen - Famous Blue Raincoat
When you want a laugh you go to Cohen. This is a pretty morose song. About the one that got away or you let get away. A love letter to her.

Elvis Costello - Almost Blue
Elvis works for both break up playlist and broken up playist. This is the the broken up. I knew he was angry I did not know he could go sad, at least not quite like this.

Tom Waits - Time
"And its time/And its time/And its time, time, time that you loved me/And its time/time/time" If there has been a sadder lyric I haven't heard it. Description of the morose night owls.

Nick Drake - Time of No Reply
A hall of famer for the mopey sad guys. I could explain why the song is on here but why bother?

Chet Baker - My Funny Valentine
I haven't decided if that is actually one of the saddest songs or not but it is in heavy rotation right now. It sounds sad to me but it might just be my brain connecting the dots.

Pearl Jam - Black
Its a hit. You have heard it. You may have even cried to it. Certainly helped bring down your day.

Jackson Browne - Fountain of Sorrow
I grew up on Jackson Browne therefore I do not nessicarly associate him with sadness. then I listened to the lyrics. I thought about jumping out my window and then I remembered it was a second story. So instead I just lay in bed.

The Mountain Goats - Get Lonely
This is sad. This is so sad that it only makes sense after the relationship has just ended.

Band of Horses - Is There A Ghost
Not that sad compared to the others. In fact I think there is hope in the song which makes it a good end note but its still not happy. As I lay here I see a possible speck of light with this song.

And I know what you are thinking right now, "What about Bright Eyes?" Well, they just don't really do it for me right now. They are angst-y and I like them but they are not blue.

thoughts

There are somethings you can only listen to on your headphones, ...and you will know us by the trail of dead is one of those bands. Nothing else to say about it.

I am thinking of putting all my one acts together as one monsterous play/movie/idea they all sorta fit together

I really should drop geo but why bother? Not hard just boring

Shows, no Class

College sorta sucks. Its hard to say deffinitively that is totally does or totally doesn't. I have fun on the weekends when I am with my friends but when I am stuck in my room I want to transfer. I can't stand my roommate or the people I live next too. So maybe if I just transfer rooms I will be happier.

Class aren't great but that is simply because I am in gigantic classes.

I went to Against Me! Last night and had a lot of fun. Its always good to go to shows just to do something and meet new people. Something I will say in for the punk community it is pretty welcoming. I guess you can't be the community of outsiders and then shun people. I am pretty sure I am going to make my buddy go to Bad Religion and go to Social Distortion over thanksgiving.

There are not enough random comics in the world. Scratch that there are plenty but I don't have enough.

A wish list for any reading who want to send something to me: Flannel Shirts, Size 12 Chuck Taylors, 40 of Malt Liquor, Skateboard, Black Sweatshirt, Random Stuff

Punk Rock Love...A Favorite

Punk rock love is fucking behind the dumpster down the street from the show. Fucking in the shower at the Hotel Carlton. Making out in the recycle bin. Looking at her tattoos while she's asleep. Taking showers together. Playing checkers with cigarette butts. Watching her band play. Dumpstering veggies together and then going back to her place and cooking up a feast. Knowing the same parts of the same songs. Both of you having the same ex-girlfriend. Punk rock love is having to tie her shoes for her cuz she's too drunk. Kissing under the overpass. Her sending you her whole diary to read. Her giving you ten rolls of duct tape for your birthday. Her beating up skinheads. Going to the prom on her motorcycle and checking in the helmets at the coatcheck. Getting astonished stares from all the jocks who thought you were gay, now they feel dumb cuz you're with an older punk rock bombshell and they're with their friend's little sister. Punk rock love is meeting her outside the club and her saying come home with me or I'm gonna kick your fuckin ass. Going home with her and she almost kicks your ass anyway. Sharing hairdye. Riding double on a bike. Being loud and not caring. Sneaky eyes and sleeveless t-shirts. The sun coming up and you realizing that there's other people on the beach. A good sleazy one week stand. Still being friends afterwards, most of the time. Punk rock love is her sneaking out in the middle of the night to meet you in the park. Running your fingers over her spikey hair. Her chewing on a flower and you having to call poison control when her tongue swells up. Bringing her to the laundromat for a date. Sharing a sleeping bag and waking up freezing in the middle of the night and her, bleary eyed, trying to heat it up with a blowdrier. Social Unrest playing "Ever Fallen in Love?" at the gig you're both at the night after she dumps you hard. Starting smoking again after that night. Punk rock love is her drawing on you. Her sleeping on your back. Her being mad at you for being such a jerk. Her thinking it's cool that you stink and your hair stands up by itself. Her having weird roommates who worship eggs. You waiting in the doorway for hours hoping she might pass by. Even in the snow. Her singing along with Descendents records over the air on her late night radio show. Her picture on the front page of the morning paper, getting arrested. Her borrowing your favorite black hat and never giving it back. Punk rock love is finding a girl who drinks as much coffee as you do. Going into the cafe where she works and she looks up and smiles and doesn't notice as she trips over a pile of 50 dishes. They hit the floor one by one and when it's all done everyone in the cafe applauds and you both turn beet red. Punk rock love is both of you doing fanzines. Years later her teaching English to college freshmen, you still doing fanzines. Her wearing glasses through her eyes are fine, using crutches though her legs are fine, and talking with a fake speech impediment. You just thinking it's rad girl style, until later when someone brings up the concept of self-imposed handicaps. Punk rock love is getting your first kiss and almost losing your virginity at the same time, meanwhile you're trying not to wake up the other person sleeping in the same bed. Groping in the bushes by the freeway and later you realize that all the passing cars could see you. Exploring the wasteland together. holding hands out on the fire escape. Lying in the grass in her backyard. Lying on the astroturf in her bedroom. Drinking tequila on her porch, on your birthday. Riding on her motorcylce early in the cold morning and you're holding on tight and steam is rising off of the river and you're thinking how she is maybe even better than the Ramones. Punk rock love is both being broke. Love letters. Finding out she sang "Stay Free" at her high school talent show. Finding out she's a little crazier than you thought when you finally get her in bed. Her boyfriend getting mad. Walking around with her and her nephew and everyone giving you dirty looks cuz they think he's your kid. Walking around with her and being happy and proud. Being sad together. Being sad by yourself. Missing her.'

Fashion

Can some explain fashion to me? I thought I had a gripe on it and then people do things I don't get. Like I understand that what is worn on the runway will not be worn on the street. I also understand that some people have bad or unique fashion. But what the fuck is with all these guys trying to look like Dads? Tucked in dress shirts, cargo shorts, baseball hats trying to covert the bald spot and 5 o'clock shadows. I am not sure if they are students or parents coming to get their kids.

Also what the fuck is with polo shirt dresses. I see girls wearing them everywhere. I looks like they stole an incredibly fat, incredibly tall guys shirt and decided it would work as a dress. It doesn't. It basically makes you look fat/poorly formed. And stop poping your damn coalar.

Who knows maybe I just don't know how to dress.

Return

After a year of not blogging I have returned. I decided to start up again after blogs like One D at a Time and Sex, Drugs, and Narcissism. I wish my blog would be as good as theres but thats probably not going to happen. I just hope I will get more than two people to look at it.